Why I want to walk....

2008-03-29T23:28:49Z

This is my first year doing a 3 day event. I have done a one day event in the past but I am so looking forward to this walk. Every October my mother and I buy all the items we can that help fund breast cancer research. We've bought stuffed animals, shirts, pins, pens, braceletes, sandals, you name it we've bought it ha. This year I thought I'd do something bigger!! I am walking. When I was 11 my Aunt Olie died of breast cancer, on March 13th 1995.

I remember coming home from school the week before and packing to drive to Texas to see her. The whole way there I was remembering all the fun we had had at Disneyworld in 1992 and how much I had missed her. Since she lived in Texas I didn't see her much. So there I was 11 years old excited to see my Aunt not knowing just how horrible Breast Cacner really was. So driving to Texas I expected to see my cute little Auntie that I hadn't seen in a long time. The day I saw her changed my life forever. Honestly I wish I had never seen her. We walked into the hospice, over to the nurses station. the nurse told us how to get to her room.

If it weren't for the name tag on the door I would not have believed it was my aunt. My Aunt how I remembered her was super cute, barely 5 foot tall, super cute curly black hair and a bright smiley face. But the woman I saw laying in the hospice bed was not my aunt. The woman lying in the bed was swollen, she couldn't talk, she was bald and looked nothing like I thought she would. I looked at my mom and I could see that she was heart broken to she her sister in such bad shape. I wanted so bad to fall to floor and cry my eyes out. To scream to the Lord why my aunt? Why now? But I couldn't. I had to be strong for my mom. So the last week that we got to spend with her I never cried.

I stayed strong for my mom and never told her how much that changed me. I think since I was so young it affected me more. I was the only kid there. My sister had to stay behind to go to school and none of my cousins came. So all my uncles and my two older cousins (my aunts sons) were constantly asking if I was ok. Asking if I wanted candy or soda. I didn't want anything from them. All I wanted was to snap my fingers and have my aunt get better. But she didn't get better. The day after we started out trip back to California she joined her mother in heaven. I never really told people about my week in Texas.

I honestly wish my Aunt was still here that that horrible week never happened. But it did and now I hope to God I never have to see someone I love suffer like that again. So this year I am trying to raise as much as I can to help support the fight against breast cancer. No woman should have to suffer from this horrible disease. No one should have to look at a loved one and not know who they are. I had to be strong for my mom back then and now I am going to be strong for my mom, my daughter, my sister, my nieces, my grammys and every woman I know. I hope I can finish the 60 miles in one piece.

Sadly on Mrach 12th this year I had to have left knee surgery. Not much fun. So after physical therapy I will start my training and keep everyone updated! I am honored to be able to walk, especially with so many amazing women!

I'm a virgin.....

2008-03-29T12:00:28Z

So I am new at this thing....I never really had a blog before...Oh well....I am gonna keep this short it's way too late....But I am josie...I am 24 and I have a random life and I will do my best to keep on top of this blog and posting how I am doing on my fundraising for the 3 day breast cancer walk. I hope you like what I have to say...when I am actually more awake to say it... I will write more tomorrow or should I say today....ok bye

kats_mama

Why I want to walk....

I'm a virgin.....